(This post was inspired by Zach Bush)
My relationship with nature has always been this adventurous, yet maternal feeling. Growing up, I was constantly outside playing with my neighbors catching moths, digging in dirt, kicking balls on grass, riding my bike- pretending like I am going to the grocery store. I always played sports as well, which I think played into this relationship. In high school, I was a waterpolo player, and really loved the Ocean and being in the water. It was such a release for me especially during this time in my life which was really hard. The water was something that I knew I could let it all out in everyday, and then come out an hour later feeling cleansed and new.
Then when I was 20, I lived with my Aunt in Switzerland for 3 months. I think this time was a whole new lesson in nature, I saw a whole new side of it. The nature here is just so strong, it kinda hits you in the face and makes you stop and bask in all it’s glory. There’s moments where I am just “Wow, how is this real!“ .. Also not to mention, learning and feeling the element of woods and forest- it can actually scare me sometimes it feels so strong!! My Swiss roots have taught me SO much about the magic that nature holds and offers. I’ve always said, there is a lot of indigenous intelligence running through the roots of Switzerland, as well as in my family. For example, my Aunt rosali, who is approaching her 99th year, knows everything there is to know about roses. Where to trim them down (after the 3 leaves). That you can never repot a rose bush in the same spot. And just that every time they grow, they bring some new mystery and beauty with them that you just cant help but try to figure out…
Then in 2018, I started to really feeeeel nature for the first time. I dont know what and where this came from, but during this time I started walking outside ALL of the time. I would walk maybe 5-7 days a week, after work mostly, along the beach in Long Beach. I loved this time alone and being by myself outside. Sometimes I would walk to work, which was a good hour walk there and back.. I would put my headphones in, watch beautiful sunsets, and my mind was in such a calm, yet stimulated place. A lot of my healing and ideas came from this time…
My relationship with nature currently is in such a deeper place. I have plants that I talk to sometimes (lol I dont know if this is normal, but I feel like they’re my friends 😂), I need to go outside at least once a day in the fresh Swiss air and take my deep breathes- its truly medicinal. I get excited to notice new things and colors and textures on my walks. and I just feel so much sadness thinking about how she’s struggling now and endlessly still gives.. My relationship with her has taken on emotions now, which in my mind is kinda weird, but in my heart I truly feel it.
I see a lot of similar traits between Females and Nature. The beauty to begin with, the act of always giving and never asking anything in return (for all the mommas out there), the grace, the healing nature offers, the intelligence of her system, and the change & transformation she’s going through. I wish all can experience the depth of what I am talking about, it truly has held me together and given me SO much courage. I know she always has my back..
